Confusing aite? I am complicated that way.
It gets harder when you don't know the reason why you're always behind. Probably because you're the one who chooses to run slowly and carelessly.
Well sometimes when people told you to go ahead, walk faster, don't stop, you tried hard to move ahead faster, but then your shoe lace gets untied. And you have no other choice other than stopping to tie it back up. And then they keep on shouting hey walk faster, and you feel like yelling and tell 'em " eh tak nampak ke orang tengah ikat tali kasut?"
Ok don't bother understanding. Nobody understands better than God anyway.