Selfish.

Semalam tengah membaca. Dan terjumpa ini. Dan sungguh terasa.

"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menganiaya manusia sedikitpun, akan tetapi manusia jualah yang menganiaya diri mereka sendiri."- 10:44

Lately I didn't treat myself well. Bukan salah Dia pun, salah kau la, menzalimi + menganiaya diri sendiri. Makan sambil lewa. Study sambil lewa. Tidur banyak melampau. Subuh gajah dinosaur. Fikir benda tak penting.

Then berat tak normal. Results exam tak cantik. Mata lebam-lebam. Then sedih tak tentu pasal.Kesian badan+otak+hati kau.Then nak salahkan siapa? God? pfft -.-"

Diri sendiri yang decide to torture diri sendiri. So salah diri sendiri la.

Kalau sayang diri sendiri, have to start changing. Everything. Walaupun macam dah lambat untuk insaf, tapi better late than never at all kan? Kena selfish. Makan utk badan SENDIRI yg sihat. Study utk results SENDIRI yg cantik.Macam annoying pulak bunyi post ni banyak sangat perkataan "SENDIRI" lol

kne start ingat study more? hahaha. If at this point I put my study aside, how pathetic would I be. No honey study is my priority now. Actually not only now, it has always been my priority. If not what's the purpose of them sending me here. Only sometimes because I'm human, I forget, but thanks for reminding anyways. So no worries, aite?

Kalau malas sekarang how in the world can you end up being a doctor?

And where in the world will you put your face dah bagi malu parents dengan fail?

And how in the world can you face all your little cousins who said they wanna be a doctor like kak ika tapi kak ika fail?

And who in the world would want to take you as a wife if you're a total failure now?

(eh last part ni macam over pulak hahaha)

Saya berjanji tidak akan menganiaya diri sendiri dengan tidak study bersungguh-sungguh+menyesal kemudian hari, dan akan menyayangi diri sendiri dengan study penuh jihad.

Apehal blogging lagi ni. Study sana shuh shuh