Weird.

Salam and greetings (I rarely start off my post with this. Forgetful me.)

Weird. Having written two posts at an unusually short time interval, this is weird for me (looking at the fact that I've been abandoning this blog for quite sometime)

Have you ever questioned yourself what's wrong with you?
Or what's the matter with you?
I have those questions dawdling in my mind lately. And sadly, I don't know why. It's 4.33am Dublin time and my eyes are still wide awake. This is not good.

Eyes hurt, biological clock going haywire.
Head aches, probably lack or overloading of sleeping hours.
Inability of the brain to read and memorize.
Stare blankly at the book for a longgg time before actually reading.
Too occupied with other stuffs and forgetting to jog and give the body some space to breathe.
Stressed when times were wasted just like that.
Too much to be revised and don't know where to start.
Dozing off in lectures and get pissed off for not scribbling any notes.
Not contributing anything to things going on around me.
Spending tonnes of hours just to finish ONE lecture note. I repeat, ONE!

I get angry with myself too much lately. And I don't know why.Maybe because the heart's in such a mess right now. Like everything are all tangled-up in a tiny little messy space. Maybe I need to open up and make room for reflection.

"Who have believed and whose hearts have rest in the remembrance of Allah.
Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest!" [13:28]

A common verse always shared by others. But it doesn't feel common when it hits the heart at the right moment =)

Harus bertenang seketika. Tarik nafas dan lepas.