Just a thought.
What if you're not good enough? For him, for her, for them, for this, for that, for life, for whatever thing surrounding you, what if you're just not good enough for 'em all?
Would you change to how you used to be? Would you give in? Would you work things out? Would you simply sit back and accept the fact that you're just not good enough?
You know that state of confusion when you're just lost, grabbing anything to be your identity. Faking everything to prove that you're good enough, to prove that you're worth it. Isn't that hypocrisy? What happens to being you? What happens to your once awesome attitude?
Forcing yourself to the library to prove that you're worth being in the 3rd year medicine, forcing yourself to put on an emotional face to show that you're not in a good mood, forcing yourself to be happy to show that you're always awesome, forcing yourself to do this and that to prove this and that, forcing everything on yourself, just to prove something that is not for the world to see. As if my life is a fake. Man, I seriously need an attitude check-up.
What if I am really not good enough..
p/s: Saturday blues.