Expression.

I once read a quote by Hannah Moore in the Chicken Soup,

“Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal”

Now those ‘frightful things’ are seriously haunting me, making me feel greatly unsure of what the future has in store for me. JPA has already make it clear of the path the Almighty is carving for me, to be a doctor. And yet I’m afraid that the path might be ruined by my very own mistakes, not setting my eyes on the goal. I’m trying very hard to meet what people around me were expecting from my weak spirit. Each Homo sapiens on Earth, were given brains, so that make us equal. It’s not a matter of getting high marks in each test or the ability to answer monotonous academic questions giftedly that determine how genius and brilliant you are. Come on people. Let’s not put the pressure on those brainy people.

And one more thing, yes indeed I am a scholar who was offered a scholarship to read medicine in Ireland, but there are hundreds of other excellent students who were offered the same scholarship. JPA has set a cut-off point for its scholars, and if you don’t meet their expectations, let’s just bid good-bye to my dream of studying in Ireland. So, please don’t misunderstand, my place in Ireland is NOT guaranteed, and the probability of me flying overseas, perhaps it’s just 20%. I’m just an ordinary IB student, struggling with confusing pure math questions, losing my brains for TOK discussion, greedily collecting CAS hours to fulfill the IB requirement, and praying very hard that He will always be with me and bless me throughout my 2 years here. One thing for sure, I’m not a medic student, so the title ‘doctor’ does not fit in well. How I wish everyone would stop calling me that, as it’s starting to get into my nerves, what if I end up not being the person with the handsome white coat in the hospital. Not graduating with an IB diploma at the end of 2 years means Ireland is just like one of my ordinary dreams to have a candlelight dinner with Daniel Radcliffe, and that also means I’ve wasted 2 years of my life, knowing that I won’t be able to get it back.

Semester exam is just around the corner, and I hope I won’t disappoint my loved ones, who have pour out their hearts and souls just to see me happy with what I’m doing now.

I wish I could bear with weeks of sleepless night before the exam. Sleep is my precious hobby, and sleep is also my biggest enemy XD

There is so much to be revised, with camping-s and CAS activities to be done. Another hectic life.

Raya!

This year we spent the first raya at Bayan Lepas, so that we can celebrate it with our dearest grandma, after she had stroke earlier this year. My whole family, the theme for this year is majestic gold.LOL. Abah and Ayit wore yellowish gold baju melayu, and us fantastic 4 wore striking gold baju kurung. No picture in our baju raya this year as my sisters disappeared as soon as their partner-in-crime arrived (my cousins! =p). Mama and Abah were also busy. In the evening we went back to Bukit Merah, to ‘raya’ with my mom’s family. Then we held a barbeque! Complete with a karaoke set haha. I was totally enjoying myself. 3^rd day raya, went to Queensbay, shop shop!

Yesterday mama invited the whole family for a barbeque at our house. The women cook, and the men grill.LOL. And the best part is, we played netball at the compound of my house. Actually it’s not netball, it’s netball+basketball+dodgeball+volleyball. Haha! Apiq (my cousin), Ayit ( my lil bro), Pakcik and I were in the same team, against Alip, Adib, Adam and Ariessa. The game should be called that way as Pakcik and Alip NEVER obey the rules in netball. They dodge, they dunk, and they do whatever they can to get the ball into the net! Main tipu! Tapi
x kesah coz our team won!! 15-14 yaay!!

Us. 3rd day Raya.(^^,)

Pakcik pantang dpt mic(^^,)

BBQ at Bukit Merah, Perak.(^^,)

Irfan Danish. He's so cute!!

BBQ at our place.Bertam (^^,)

Ika. Makcik Miza. Anis Syafinas.(^^,)

Norman and the twins (Aiman and Aiqal) = the 3 musketeers!

Alip and Awib. eat eat eat!

Alhamdulillah x hujan =))

Tiang netball itu menjadi saksi kemenangan kami!LOL~

This year I didn’t get the chance to visit and hang out with my friends, Liyana, KD, Ifa, Dalila. Liyana went back to KYUEM on the 3^rd day of Raya. On the 1^st day of Raya, luckily my grandma house was nearby KD’s, but while I was in Penang, she’s in Kedah. And when she got back to Penang, I was in Perak.huhu~ Ifa went back to Kelantan and Perlis. Tak penah nak lekat kt Penang!(^^,) And Dalila, obviously I can’t meet her, she’s in Indonesia. Hopefully our end-of-year holiday will ‘clash’ ok! Then we can hang out at Queensbay!!!yippee~

At the edge of sweet 16

Bye bye 16. Welcome 17.hehe(^o^) Now I can legally own a driving license.
Thanks to those who remember, so sweet of you guys =p
First to wish by sms, my beloved old schoolmates, KD, Liyana, the forgetful Ifa (=p), Dalila and Azreena, miss u guys badly! To Meir, Zana, Dila, Esah, Zaty, Seha, Azie, lucky to find these crazy people in SMAP, thanks a bunch for the SMSes and voice sms. Then to Safwan, I’m surprised when you remember my birthday, hehe thanks anyway.
To my roommate, Izzati and to my friends and classmates, Bashu, Seha, Nady, Ila, Mif, Sarah, Farah, Baby and to those who wish, even when there are loads of important things to be remembered.
Lots of love from me!!mmmuaahhh!
And of course, last but not least, to abah mama ayit ira and adik, thank you so much!love you muchos!!and thank you for that present hehe
Now that I’m officially 17, I will definitely look forward to have a driving license. And to pass the semester exam on November, with flying colours (InsyaAllah =p). And to have a great raya this year, because when we get older, the angpau keep getting smaller, theoretically. And to continue having a blissful family and great friends. And to enjoy my 2 years of IB in this college.
Basically, that’s for now hehe.

Ramadhan-ku di Banting.

Counting days to go back to Penang hehe..this coming Friday!!can’t wait. With all the raya songs on most of the radio channels, the ‘raya’ spirit is flaming man! My friends and I, every time we hear these blissful raya songs, we sing our hearts out!! Almost 2 weeks fasting in MCB is tiring yet enjoyable, even some of the non-Muslims were fasting as well. We’re allowed to go to the bazaar outside once a week, but on weekdays, we have our own bazaar. A few clubs set up their stalls to raise fund for their respective clubs. The spirit of Ramadhan is clearly portrayed at the bazaar, and also at night, during tarawih. The college organized a big event, the ‘Ifthorul Jami’i’, where everybody bukak puasa together including the teachers and staff. Meriah beb!way back from bazaar

bazaar @Banting

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