Saturday, February 26, 2011

independency.

independent. not depending on another for livelihood or subsistence. (oxford dictionaries)

A word I never thought will be compulsory on me one day. Throughout childhood and adolescent life, I've been dependent on my parents, even if I went to boarding school, independent apa kalau duit outing tiap-tiap minggu call them. Kasut pun kdg2 mama yg basuh, baju kdg2 abah yg iron.

And then when we grow up, I don't know if you noticed, but you'll slowly be independent without you realizing. Once upon a time you're afraid to decide on even the simplest thing like which t-shirt colour you should pick, and now here you are planning your trip to foreign countries like Spain, France etc, without having the urge to consult your parents anymore, and only call them for permissions.

And sooner or later, you're on your own making huge decisions concerning your life. And sadly, I failed miserably. When you have to pay your own bills, buy your own groceries, fight annoying people off, handling your own heartaches, push yourself to take up pills when you're sick, work out your own financial plans, that's when you know you're an adult.

And there's no time to be dependent on anyone. Nobody waits for you, especially when you're not pretty enough, not rich enough, not funny enough, not handsome enough, or whatever it is that makes people enjoy your dependency on them. If you don't have the aforementioned criteria, normal people would normally act rimas when you're dependent on them. That's how funny the world is.

Sadly at the age of 20, I've only recently learned, don't grow dependent on anyone, because one day when you saw them being dependent on others, you'll realize, they never actually cared about you in the first place.



p/s: Bill electric bulan ni dah bagi myocardial infarction, thankyou airtricity.

2 comments:

nishomel said...

kire i ni independent la ye dah bleh bayar bill sniri hahhaa.n da pandai meminta simpati kawan2 untuk kasi pinjam duit beli tiket balik msia.
LOL

zulaikhazainol said...

independent la tu, lepas ni kte cari voucher spa murah2 kt citydeal, jadi mak datin sket. baru independent to the max! yayyy :p