Kadang-kadang

dalam hidup, kita tak selalu dapat apa yang kita nak, tak selalu dapat experience things the way yang kita nak. When that happens, sedarlah diri. That everything is in the hands of God, not yours. Silly me.

Thank you awak, you have taught me one valuable lesson :)

I'm back.

For more joy.

For more heartache.

For more friendship.

For more broken promises.

For more stress.

For more travelling.

For another year of medical adventure.

Hello there dublin!

Raya rayaaa

Hey you people who dropped by often but never leave a sign, walaupun sekarang dah 4 syawal,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Colourful font to wish you a colorfulll vibrant awesome rockin' raya! :D

*wah bajet sungguh kau macam la ramai orang drop by* hahah

anyways people, bulan syawal bulan kemenangan after a month berperang dengan nafsu sendiri kan? tapi takyah la nak stop perang dah pasni, ish, pemalas betol. sebulan training lawan nafsu bawak bekal untuk setahun okeh. jangan lupa puasa enam jom :)

lagi satu anyways, i'm going back to the city where people say "howzzit goin mayte?" without expecting an answer, on the 20th Sept. bye bye!

Oh yes I am the jealous type!

I'm jealous at you, because you look effortlessly pretty in pictures, even when you do nothing.

I'm jealous at you, because you were super brilliant in exams, even when you don't have to work your socks off studying.

I'm jealous at you, because you cook like a pro, even when you simply throw in stuff in the pan it still turns out scrumptious.

I'm jealous at you, because you wake up at 4am everyday having the special chance to be with Him, even when you were dog tired the day before.

I'm jealous at you, because you were really good at starting a conversation with the elderly, instantly winning hearts, even when you merely talk about the weather.

I'm jealous at you, because you always have the chance to spend time with my loved ones.

I'm jealous at you, because you are never sleepy in classes, unlike me, the professional dozing-off sleepyhead.

I'm jealous at you, because you always get everything you wanted, even if you wanted other people's happiness.

I'm jealous at you, because you always appear wise and matured, unlike me, who always acted like a child.

I'm jealous at you, you and you!

Oh yes I am the jealous type.

But came to think of it, there's no use being jealous at others, unless it helps to improve yourself. All the jealousy I've listed, doesn't mean I want 'em all, doesn't mean I want to be like you. I'm indeed wasting time being jealous of you, you and you!

You can have your happiness, because I have my own. You can try taking away mine, but I still have millions of them in stock. HAH! boo you!

Now bye-bye jealousy :D

Boo-Yah!

Assalamualaikum. HAHAHAH. what a big fat liar I am. Remember the previous post saying I'm putting this blog on hold? Now I'm back on track here because I finally figured out that blogspot was where my lengthy thoughts belong :') As for all the mini-mini thoughts, I posted it in that 'other' medium ;)

Anyways, I just feel like sharing what I experienced a couple weeks ago. I went to Majlis Iftar Hidayah Centre, which was basically a gathering for all reverts, our new brothers and sisters in Islam.It was cute seeing people speaking in mandarin and tamil breaking fast and performing tarawih together :)

I was there to help out at a booth belonging to Raudhatus Sakinah (RS), a centre for our strong sisters whose life were tested with social problems, and pregnancy out of the wedlock. So we arranged posters on abortion and art crafts made by the girls for charity fundraising. I was at the booth with the warden of RS, Kak Lin, went suddenly an aunty came and threw me a really weird look. Then she asked Kak Lin something really funny, she was like, " Can you come here for a moment, I have something to ask." When Kak Lin returned, she said the makcik asked whether I was one of the girls from RS! hohoho. Well it's not her fault making assumption like that anyways, because I was clearly different from the rest at the booth based on what I wore. tsk tsk (T.T)

After tarawih, as I was sitting at the booth, a cute little girl named Izzah, around 5 years of age came by. She was surprised by the posters displaying gory images of babies and foetus thrown away like baby dolls. And then Izzah started asking heartbreaking questions, like, why did their mummies throw them away. Why were the babies drench in blood. Why were they wrap in papers and plastics. If you were there, you'd be speechless by the witty curiosity of this 5-year-old. Came to think of it, it's saddening to know that the number of abandoned babies are skyrocketing lately, maybe because the media was starting to give more attention to the matter. Innocent kids like Izzah will keep on wondering why would people want to dump their babies, because her mother loves her a lot and would never dumped her like that.

When some people said that we are returning to Jahiliyyah, I couldn't agree more. People dumped babies back then, similar to what's happening now. People make babies out of the wedlock back then, just like what's happening now. Sadly, it happens a lot among Muslims. What's up with that, people?

Reading facebook statuses and blogposts of my friends, everyone felt the same way about this matter. People keep on throwing babies away and beating their kids to death, OH COME ONNN! How can humans be so cruel to such cute creatures.

ni muka mintak pukul ke? haih.

elis and sofea. sape brani kacau ,aku babab!

Let's start to wonder what went wrong.