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*ceh padahal privatize kejap je*

now even more crazier and sillier.

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whaddup.

exams have really taken a toll on my sanity. goodluck peeps!

Weather permitting.

I was about to enter my apartment when this notice was pasted on the big blue door.

Window and outer cleaning will commence tomorrow, Thursday 28th October 2010. Weather permitting.

Pastu boleh pulak terfikir, kenapa weather permitting why not God willing or inshaAllah? hahaha

Because we put so much dependence on stuff other than God, and from that notice, the weather determines everything.

But on the other hand, for the workers, obviously they cannot work if it rains all day. How to clean windows kalau hujan.Plus, when you live in Ireland, you know how much weather can affect you. hahaha. Lagipun, non-muslim Irish mana faham inshaAllah tu ape. But still, cute tak kalau dia tulis God willing? ok dah ika banyak pulak bebel. Isu penggunaan perkataan je pun. huh

This is just a silly random thought that came across my mind on the way back home from stressful lectures yang banyak gila slides tunggu masa nak habis je.

You are.

My friend.
My company.
My laughter.

My tears.
My joy.
My reminder.
My adviser.
My listener.
My lunch buddy.
My online-mate.
My planner.
My escort.
My bully.
My computer geek.
And many more.


What an all-rounder you are (:
And if I ignored my laughter, my tears, my reminder, all of those above, how am I supposed to live as a normal human being?
Trust me, ignoring you is the last thing I'd wanna do.


p/s: Yeknow what never fail to make me laugh every time? the cockroach moment. and the silly diva moment too. lol

Gossip girls.

Hari ni hari happy. Why?

Rujuk bukti-bukti berikut:

Happy belatedddd birthday untukk yg nama terabadi atas kek cantek :p

lihat muka macho mif walaupun kek begemerlapan dan suara2 gedik menyanyi 'happy birthday' berkumandang -.-"

Ececeyy blushing pulak dapat present :p

ok ni voted the best picture of the night. RUJUK MUKA AJ AND MIF. priceless XD

mif: ila nah amek kau sesuap

aj: tidakkkkkkkkk!

aksi menyuap gagal tampak romantik. haha

tiqah menyedari fokus lensa kamera. ain sedang membalas dendam terhadap mee mamak yang tak habis sebelum ini.

housemate 1

housemate 2

*eleh cakap je la nak letak gambar sendiri sebenarnya*

p/s: turutan gambar tidak melambangkan apa-apa ranking kasih sayang terhadap dua housemate sengal ini.

jangan risau both receive equal love from me :p

sedappp sampai nak pengsan

BURPPPP alhamdulillah :)

So why am I happy tergedik2 nak post dalam blog? Sebab si cantek-si cantek inilah.

Since I despised facebook for the time being, blogspot is the next picture-uploading target. hehe

Sorry birthday girl, we were sooo late to celebrate your big day.

And the blame is definitely on us, tapi best kan tadi best kan kan kan?:p

Walaupun sekarang dah tak lepak bilik nyanyi lagu kain cinta putih kuat2

tak jogging petang-petang and tapau makanan DS

tak lepak LRC malam2 and gi supper or beli nasi lemak kat wakaf

tak datang senyap2 pastu bila bukak pintu ada orang nyanyi epi bday

tak makan aiskrim koop and gossip everytime birthday MO7Fgirls

tak turun toilet bawah and tangkap lipas untuk prank Ila

We still love you longggg time!

Happy birthday miffy rocks :DDD

Time.

Time, to me, is a very funny entity.

Now it keeps on playing games with me.

If in a day, we plan to do beneficial stuff like cooking for friends, revising lectures, calling families, we always ended up not having enough time. Like it seems to fly straight off the window.

But, if in a day, we plan to watch movies, sleep the whole day, skip classes, we always ended up having lotsa time for ourselves. Like the whole day was passing by like a slow-moving snail.

Don't know about you, but I certainly feel stressed out because of not achieving what I wanted to do in a day, because of time.

Now that all mid-terms are around the corner, I'm constantly chasing time. Like always. Every second of every minute of every hour, I never feel like the 24 hours given to me were enough. I think I'm chronophobic, constantly in fear of time.haha

Sometimes because of too much thinking about what to do in so little time, I ended up not doing anything. One lecture note simply on say, drug absorption, would take me a whole day long to finish. Sometimes more than a day. To make matters worse, I need to cover 15 lectures before next Wednesday, for our pathology midterm. How terrible is that.

Second year is tough, I tell you. I know the whole course is tough, and if you ask the third-years or the fourth-years they would probably say the same thing. Senang cerita medic memang susah.We have only reached week 6, and it feels like the lecturers have covered three quarter of the neuroanatomy textbook.

And I'm losing a whole lot of weight as compared to last year.

Oh God please please please don't make time run away from me. Maybe what I need is not time, but the whole keberkatan in every second of every day.Kalau ada keberkatan dalam setiap saat, I might feel contented with 24 hours a day :)

What if.

What if you know the right thing to do, but your heart refuses to do it.

I know waiting is better because the outcome will be worth the wait. But for now, my heart refuses to wait, and I know that might disappoint you.

Judge a book by its cover?

Why do I have to post something when the super-scary neuroanatomy exam is tomorrow morning?

Simple. Sebab stressss lah tengok gambar hotak kau. Eh tak baik cakap 'hotak kau!'. Ok fine stress la having to look at the brain, the brain, and the brain again. If I were to puke now, I must've puke the brain out. Seriously. Ceh bajet je macam la dah banyak sangat study.

Actually I planned to share this ages ago. But being the procrastinator me, here we go. One day my dearest kakak shared about something I can't remember. But what I remember is the story during the era of our Prophet Muhammad. During a war, as the Muslims were winning over the Kuffar, those who choose to embrace Islam through reciting Syahadah will not be killed. So many of the Kuffar started embracing Islam at that instant moment. However, there is this one story of a Kafir, whose neck was at the tip of the sword of one of our Prophet's companion. He immediately shouted the Syahadah, but the Prophet's companion thought it was merely his trick to escape death. So he ended up cutting the man's head off. The Prophet saw this and immediately advised his companion, that who are we to judge how pure one's intention is. Even if the Kafir he killed did not really want to embrace Islam, it's not within our hands to judge him.

The story's lacking details here and there. Tak ingat perang apa and sahabat yang mana. Cinderella and Snow White kau ingat je kan.Teruk.(-.-'). Sorryy.

This story is related to a few incidents experienced by my friends and I. Some of my friends were on the bus back home, and a lady was watching them with a face full of hatred (maybe because of the hijab and so forth), and seemed to be cursing under her breath. The first reaction would normally be retaliation, us cursing the lady back silently in our heart ( wey makcik ni apesal pandang2). But going back to the previous story, Rasulullah suruh bersangka baik. Tak payah sibuk-sibuk nak judge orang.Mungkin makcik itu sedang curse orang lain (-.-") Aaaaa I judged people all the time,

'die ni apsal pakai tudung tak sama ngan baju',

'die ni apsal cakap kuat sangat nak bagi satu lecture hall dengar'

'die ni apsal buat kerja lambat sangat'

'die ni apsal taknak cakap ngan aku'

and the list goes on forever. Ok contoh taklah relevant sangat but yeah, kinda related.

Mari semua husnuzon dengan yang lain. Dalam bahasa ibunda, bersangka baik.

Back to studying hotakkau. Eh silap. The brain. Allah's magnificent creation ;)

Pretty people, please pray for me and the rest for neuro okeh.

Peace.

Posted this before, reposting it again.

*I admit, tak faham semua nama Allah. Teruknya. (-.-")

Tak kenal maka tak cinta kan?

Random.

Spiderman's uncle said, with great power comes great responsibility.

If that's the case I don't want any power. Because responsibility, if not fulfilled, will be a great failure to you.

Anyways, I am pretty sure I made the right choice this time. I have my reasons, and I know what I needed the most at the moment is a time with my friends. If whatever I decided disappoint you, sorry on that.

And on another note; Friend, you have your own happiness. Please don't take away mine. But if you feel like you really need it, then just take mine. And leave me broken-hearted like you always do. Don't worry, one day when I'm not around you can have it all on your own :) Happy now?

Let go. Give way. And relax.

I think that's all I have to do now.

Don't bother understanding this post. You may end up with the wrong conclusion. Just a bunch of crap I'm writing to ease the tangled-up feeling in my heart.

October 5th, 2010.

What's so special about this day? Nothing special. Just another miserable troublemaker freak was added to the world 20 years ago :)

This post would be long and wordy and I bet whoever drop by would never make it to the end. Nak bet? Seploh euro. Haha

Have you ever feel a point in life where you are at your most vulnerable edge. I think I am. Because I used to think of how happy I am back then, and how happy I am now. It’s like looking at two totally different people. It’s not like I am upset with life or anything. Heyy if I’m upset I give you the authority to smack me in the head and tell me, “Woi kau ni tak bersyukur ke apa?”. Because everything I have now, I must say they’re all perfect. I have God to hold on to, I have people who love me, I have friends who care. So apa yang kurang lagi. Mengada betul la kalau tak bersyukur. The last few days have proven it all, I don’t really know how to describe how fun it is to have friends like mine around. How strong and happy they make me feel. People spending hours of their time coming over to cook for my little party, buy me presents, planning stuffs, spending money to play laser tag yang super best jerit sampai keluar anak tekak main tembak2. Eh bukan nak kata suka presents, tapi terharu la. Haha. Gosh. Just look at how committed everyone is to an entity called friendship. Ajak je, datang. Malam birthday tu insan penuh emosi ini dah rasa down gilaa sebab ada makhluk jahat curi bike seat lepas tu dah sedih sebab the whole day everyone was missing and I was alone loitering all over campus. Balik-balik tengok, tadaaa. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Haa tu la kau nak emosi sangat, kan dah malu. The next day lovely people from Rifa’ and Rufaida’ baked a cake with IKA on it ohhh tak boleh sweet lagi ke. Siap suruh follow the trail of lilin turun tangga. Ala-ala romantika. Hehe. All in all, how can I be upset when lovely and fun people surround me all the time :) Ok that was what happened on my birthday. Moral of the story is NEVER feel like no one cares about you when there always were. God won’t leave you alone and take away all the love from you kan? Alhamdulillah thank you Allah bagi saya kawan yang best :D

all the foooddd. nyum nyum

birthday cake sedappp :D

baked macaroni and cheesecake. sweet kan :)

Promises made should never be broken. Because when that happens, the only thing that breaks is not the promise, but also the heart and the person owning it. If I promise to change as I turned 20, then I should try my best not to break that promise. You too. The only thing I regretted most on my birthday, was to hurt someone who cares for me the most. Please know that I really feel bad after acting stupid and irrational. Some say that if a person can’t handle you at your worst, then they certainly don’t deserve you at your best. It’s amazing how a person can be so patient talking to an emotional wreck like me. I promise that, that moment is my worst and my last stupid act, and you certainly deserve me at my best (:

And of course, on birthdays, yang paling layak menerima sesalan adalah yang Maha Penyayang Maha Pengampun. Rasa malu pulak celebrate 20 tahun yang Dia bagi tapi apalah sangat yang dah dibuat dalam masa 20 tahun tu. Masak cucur ikan bilis pun tak lepas.huh. Okay cucur ikan bilis taklah significant tapi kalau makan petang2 cicah sos linggam sambil minum teh panas, sedapla jugak. Huhu

And to Mama and Abah, thank you for coping with a daughter like me who always trouble you to finish homework, and send to tuitions, and tucking into bed, and cook delicious food, and teach me driving, and the list goes on to eternity. I love you to the moon and heaven :)

Eh you did read until the very end? Haha sorry seploh euro tadi lawak je. Sila jangan tuntut. Anyways hope you get the message, that there're always people who love you and willing to do anything to make you happy. And this kind of people, is certainly one of a kind :) Lucky, God gave them to me.

I love you peeps!

birthdays.

the fun you get from celebrating birthdays will always diminish as you grow old and grey.

anyways, if birthdays remind you of me, then i want everyday to be my birthday :)

Happy birthday Zulaikha, 20 is a big number now. 2 decades of life. Wow.