susah juge ye.

orang suruh bersuara bila tak suka cakap tak suka.

tapi bila cakap tak suka mesti ada orang yang terasa.

hakikatnya hidup ni memang susah bila kita tak faham tujuannya.

we cannot satisfy everyone.

mulut ni juga yang mainkan peranan, sebab kata-kata lebih tajam dari perbuatan.

things happened for a reason, whatever the reason is.

no wonder Elton John cakap, sorry seems to be the hardest word, sebab memang susah pun.

no wonder jugak James Morrison cakap, there's so much craziness surrounding me, sebab mmg dunia mcm gila.

no wonder jugak Saidina Ali Karamallahu Wajhah cakap, dunia dan akhirat umpama isteri yang dimadu, apabila kau senang dengan salah satu antara keduanya, akan marahlah yang lainnya.
Dalam Economics orang panggil 'opportunity cost'.

Maybe along the way to please somebody, we hurt someone else. Think big.

hmm..susah juge ye.

Bila mulut kata OK.

OK.
a two-letter word that consumes almost none of the
energy you gained from a plate of nasi lemak this morning.
Of course, so zulaikha, whatsda fuss over 'OK' huh?

Basically, there shouldn't be any fuss over the word 'OK'. But somehow, I just feel that it does have a significance.

Ask somebody "How are you?", and they would probably say "I'm OK".
The person might be suffering from a terrible fever but to not worry you, they said they're OK,
but a person might be in fine health, they said they're OK and they really mean it.

Ask somebody to help you with something, and they would say "OK".
The person might want to help you sincerely,
but some might simply say OK just to please you.

Ask somebody "How do I look?", and they would say "You look OK".
The person would probably say OK
coz they couldn't care less on the way you look,
but a person might say OK coz they like you the way you are.

Ask somebody to comment on your academic performance,
and they would say "Everything seems OK for you".
Then you go crazy thinking about it because your friends received longer comments with detailed explanation on how well they did, or how they should improve themselves to the better.

Does "OK" mean 'average', or simply the 'best'?

You realize you've broken someone's feeling and you apologize and the person said "OK".
Is he/she really OK with what you've done?

Then I'll be wondering how OK is OK? See, OK is such an ambiguous word.



p/s: This one goes straight in the brain and in the heart ;)

"And whatever affliction befalls you,
it is on account of what your hands have wrought,
and (yet) He pardons most (of your faults)."
-42:30-

Don't worry I'm OK, except for the fact that someone reminded me that the IB finals is 95 days from now.

reaching out.

but the ultimate challenge,

inferiority complex.

.......

Bring it on.

The beginning of the climax, and I need no other than strength and prayers.
Taken from Raise Your Voice, Someone's Watching Over Me by Hilary Duff, it helps me, it really did. =)

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing here in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams...


It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart...


A few months to go. Bring it on!

This is not home.

The first time I'm not that excited to start college, again. (as if I always do~)
It's just different.
Ok maybe this is because of my EE.
This time it just reminds me of all the ..stress..last year.

or perhaps I miss home. Home means family. KMB does give 'family', but it's not the 'family' family.

This is not home. I've just arrived in this very spacious room this evening, and I feel like boarding the plane back to Penang.

I miss you guys. And this is not home.